It's been awhile

So, it's been forever since I wrote on my own blog. We've been so busy and the family blog gets all of my attention these days because I am trying to re-vamp it. Still, I wanted to PAUSE....
...to say how grateful I am. I can't believe how quickly the time passes. My son is almost a year old and my husband and I celebrate 3 happy years of marriage this month. When I look back at that time, I try to remember what I used to be like. I think I can say I've changed for the better. A little reflection is always good.
I'd also like to say that this attitude of gratitude that seized upon me by looking back, has helped me to slow down a little (surprised?). Austin and I are both busy-bodies. We like to be doing. In fact, even Cadence likes to be doing. There is always a check-list, always something more to get done. I realized recently that if I had all the time I need to finish the list, I'd just add more anyway. So I've slowed down some. I'm not as anxious to blog right away (or blog about every little thing). I'm not so anxious to keep my sink spotless (surprised mom? - heehee). I'm not so anxious to be in control.
It's been a good change for me. There is still a lot happening, so I guess it's mostly my outlook on things. I give myself the time to stop and play (and I have a really cute 10 month old excuse). I give myself the time to ponder. I don't watch the clock during scripture study, or feel I have to "finish". My husband put it pretty perfectly when he said - "There are some things you don't have to check off your to-do list. They are just a way of being". I like this new way of being.